14 June 2019
Inky Flowers: How Does my Art Grow?
It’s all a process of growth, isn’t it? I’ve sat many a time in front of an empty sketchbook page wondering what to draw, wanting to produce something perfect … and technically, I have (after many years of practise!). But something within me was never quite satisfied with the realistic coloured pencil interpretations that found their way onto my pages. I needed something deeper, more substantial, something to bite into deeply …
So what did I do? I stopped expecting, stopped imposing my needs onto the page. After years of practise, and realising that I had finally figured out how to properly wield the coloured pencils, I set them aside for a brush and a completely new medium, watercolour. I couldn’t control it, I had no idea of what would end up splashing onto the page — so instead of trying to impose control, I just let go. Yes folks, I went with the flow.
That encouraged even more experimentation but this time with a lively heart and a positive mood. Inks and dip pens. wow. How cool that everything was scratchy and lines emerged thick and thin and smudgy … it was perfectly imperfect and satisfied that deep longing for expression of some kind.
I still haven’t quite worked out exactly what it is that I’m trying to express, and will have to work backwards a bit to understand where all of this is coming from — to enter the depths, ouch. But in the meantime I am full of joy at the inky flowers that are appearing on the pages of my new Arteza sketchbook. It tells me that I’m somehow changing in the way that I approach everything else in my life as well, and that I no longer need to be perfect, and in control … sometimes beauty emerges from the most unexpected little corners of our souls.
And yes, I’m calling these Inky creations beautiful, even if they don’t live up to it as far as anybody else is concerned. They’re beautiful to me because they mark the progress of growth in my life and art, and that is amazing in itself. Practise consistently and eventually something will break through, and in my case so much is appearing that surprises me that I can only stand back in wonder and think, wow, I’m learning something. I’m growing, experiencing, expanding. Isn’t that what life is all about?
WIshing all of you small (or big!) growth miracles in your life. Cheers.
SUPPLIES I USED
Prima Marketing 590253 Watercolour Confections Pans, Multi-Colour: UK